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Old 03-10-2019, 06:46 PM #1
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I am so hurt. I keep ruminating about my abusers. Their faces, the things they said and did. I want to know why abusers abuse and why humans are capable of so much evil! I didn't deserve it!

I want to escape my body right now.

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I'm sorry you are struggling...I tend to do this too. What helps me is to shift the focus to celebrating the fact that this person is no longer involved in my life on a day-to-day basis (even if I have to bump into this person occasionally).

I hope this helps a bit...if not, then just hugs for now.
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I'm so sorry. I understand not being able to get the abusers out of your mind. It eats at your soul. I'll always wonder why and will never get any answers. It hurts and you deserve some peace.
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I am so hurt. I keep ruminating about my abusers. Their faces, the things they said and did. I want to know why abusers abuse and why humans are capable of so much evil! I didn't deserve it!

I want to escape my body right now.

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I have had a horrible day of flashbacks and intrusive memories. I cannot shut it off!

Thanks for the kind messages it helps alot.

Suicide has been on my mind all day again.
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((((((HD)))))), I am sorry you are having such a bad day today. I know what it's like to experience these bad days myself. It's so important that you practice self care and be patient with yourself because these triggers "will" pass. Also, always remember that these suicidal thoughts and impulses can simply come in as a trigger but they also DO PASS. What it means is that you feel that you can't seem to control how vulnerable you feel. It's important to remember that these episodes do pass. I know they are extremely inconvenient, that's how I feel about them too. But all that is important is that you do whatever you can to help you feel safest until this episode passes.

Do you have anything you can take to help you calm down? I know for myself that if I am having too many days like this if I take a clonopin it really helps.
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Do you have anything you can take to help you calm down? I know for myself that if I am having too many days like this if I take a clonopin it really helps.
Thanks for the kind message of support.

I live in Canada and purchased legal marijuana. I find it helps take the edge off and I have used it several times in the past month. I use it as a last resort.

I am really wanting to get an animal. Teddy bears are lovely creatures and have saved my life these past few years, but I want something that I can bond with and take with me outside. Teddy bears cannot be carried outside unfortunately.

Yesterday was a horrible day. I was constantly bombarded with trauma memories and flashbacks.

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I know what those bad days are like, have battled through them myself.

Is there something going on in your life in the now that is triggering these bad days?
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Sorry to hear about your day. Stay strong and I send you good thoughts. We all go through bad thoughts when triggered but we should stay strong so we don’t give any more power to our abuser.
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