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Old 02-07-2019, 01:10 PM   #11
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Honestly? I believe you did not have good experience with therapists. Experienced that myself and I am sure others can relate.

Have you ever tried a "trauma specialist"?
I can and would not accept any therapy. Not because its a sign of weakness but simply because its manipulation. And frankly Im me and the way Im will forever dominate my life.

Ps. Im also a great example of how contagious mental disorders are. I can traumatize anyone and give him or her some of my psychological DNA. For example every real life girl who was ever into me got used, abused and beyond. And obviously they all whined and cried. In fact Im a pro at this **** lol
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Old 02-07-2019, 01:12 PM   #12
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Thing is, you can't feel that the therapist you are sitting across from is putting you under a microscope, that's too triggering for you, too much like what your mother did with you.

Understand?
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Even though you have distanced from your mother, you are still her prisoner, still perfecting ways to self protect, but you don't let anyone in either. Do you see that?

Actually, all you are doing is nursing that same injury, instead of healing. That's why I think its sad ((inaccurate)).
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Thing is, you can't feel that the therapist you are sitting across from is putting you under a microscope, that's too triggering for you, too much like what your mother did with you.

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In a way you are right that being examined can trigger me in different ways and I cant say that I like it.

But the therapist is also under my microscope as well and I see them for what they are: manipulative money grabbing d0ngs which pretend to care while looking at my wallet. Dont blame them for this behaviour on any level.

Another thing and this is true: (its not a product of my imagination) I have a VERY sharp quick mind. I have read SO much and watched SO many movies including documentaries, Im such a database of knowledge and all kinds of correlations and references that nearly nobody can keep up. Which always results in my mind seeing others as inferior. "I know very well what they represent... the idiocy of today" :Р
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I have a VERY sharp quick mind. I have read SO much and watched SO many movies including documentaries,
You have a hyper vigilant mind. You have gathered a great deal of information and have concluded that no one can be trusted. What you mother did to you caused you to think in distorted ways like this, and see the world like this.
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But the therapist is also under my microscope as well and I see them for what they are: manipulative money grabbing d0ngs which pretend to care while looking at my wallet. Dont blame them for this behaviour on any level.
Yes, it's a way to make a living, but not all therapists are only in it for the money. Yes, some therapists/psychologists can be on the arrogant side, met some like that myself, were a waste of my time. However, I finally met one who genuinely listened and helped me to feel safe to share things with him. Because of that he helped me see things about myself that I had not realized I had been doing. I had survived a lot, proved to be quite resiliant, but I did not process a lot of crap I experienced that traumatized me. I had not even realized that.
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You have a hyper vigilant mind. You have gathered a great deal of information and have concluded that no one can be trusted. What you mother did to you caused you to think in distorted ways like this, and see the world like this.
Well sometimes I do try to take the world for what it can be, I mean hypothetically but theres always disappointment.

Basic example: take the concept of friendship. When I try to explore this area of life people start clinging to me as if Im covered by honey. They start sharing their problems and fears with me while expecting my help. Anyone who asks for my help while he or she can solve it him/herself is something that makes me want to run away.

Most humans create all kinds of problems for themselves. It happens all the time, all over the place. Its how the human nature is. I mean in general and you seem to know this yourself (making an assumption).Yet most humans expect others to solve their self created **** for them.

Making and maintaining friends can be mentally exhausting. As they ALL develop expectations.

Friendship is a very tricky adventure which can easily create enemies if one isnt careful. Simply because when help is denied, many will think you are a "bad friend" and sometimes it can even grow from there. In a bad way I mean.

Being an ultimate self sufficient lonely wolf means that I expect others to be the same. Yet such people are extremely rare.

Ps. Im ready to help but there are two conditions: it must be either my own initiative OR I have to be the only one who can provide help.

I may also have a degree of autism in me although nobody would suspect this. I can be quite repetitive in my thoughts and actions when under severe stress. Its hard to explain really.
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Basic example: take the concept of friendship. When I try to explore this area of life people start clinging to me as if Im covered by honey. They start sharing their problems and fears with me while expecting my help. Anyone who asks for my help while he or she can solve it him/herself is something that makes me want to run away.
Well, one way to see this is that when you try to be friends and explore that with others they begin to cling to you more and that's a trigger for you because that is exactly what your mother did. She did not RESPECT your feelings, and you have been left to sort that out for yourself, and it triggers you when others need to find someone who can sit and listen and feel with them, you can get angry because NO ONE ever did that for you.

What you have done is figure out how to see what others feel is important and you take advantage of that. You tend to feel that it's their own fault if they are being used too. This is the kind of lense your mother created for you to see through though.
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Well, your problem may not be autism, it could be your hyper vigilance obsessing about self protecting. (although individuals on the autism spectrum are not immune to suffering trauma related challenges)

For example, I experienced a huge challenge here on my small horse farm. My horses and ponies were terrorized by my neighbor's dog. It ended up in them sustaining all kinds of injures. However, they also got VERY sensitive to any kind of noise or movement coming from my neighbors house, and they had never been this way before, never been spooky or overly worried. This had nothing to do with anything other than how being traumatized affected them and changed them making them worry obsessively. It's how our brains, even animal brains can react to being traumatized or made to feel unsafe or threatened. It changes the level of comfort in both animals and humans.

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I can be quite repetitive in my thoughts and actions when under severe stress. Its hard to explain really.
Actually, I can also react that way because I struggle with ptsd and can get triggered and when under severe stress can experience repetitive thoughts too. I have come to understand that when I am experiencing this I am in a hyper vigilant state.
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Well, one way to see this is that when you try to be friends and explore that with others they begin to cling to you more and that's a trigger for you because that is exactly what your mother did. She did not RESPECT your feelings, and you have been left to sort that out for yourself, and it triggers you when others need to find someone who can sit and listen and feel with them, you can get angry because NO ONE ever did that for you.

What you have done is figure out how to see what others feel is important and you take advantage of that. You tend to feel that it's their own fault if they are being used too. This is the kind of lense your mother created for you to see through though.
Its more complex than blaming it on my mother.

Im quite capable of being a friend. Id even say that I can be one of the best friends one can hope for if a few basic critiria are met. Most simply dont qualify and cant qualify by their nature. And I dont necessarily mean their stupidity but also their EQ.

I know it may sound laughable, I mean given the nature of this conversation, but my EQ is off the charts. In a good way I mean. (Although its arguably not necessarily a blessing). Its just that the door to open this can not be found by most and even if it happens then finding the right key or even the right combination for this vault is beyond the abilities of 99.99% of the population. And thats how I like it. "Only the penitent man will pass".

Its not about kneeling before god, lol. I mean in my case.

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