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Old 02-12-2019, 12:19 PM #11
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I feel so cold, so needing a hug from my T, so needing to not live.
What is it all about? Work eat and sleep? I do enkoy it a little bit every now and then but its too little to make it worth of being lived, at least mine...
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I feel like crying so much. When will this end? Will I find it was pleasant to suffer for all my life one day? Right now I just would want someone to take my hand and walk together with me saying it will all go right. Problem is I know it wont it wont ill be sad, disappointed, always striving for spmething I'll never get. Im tired of having this stupid hope hurting me so much. It will be done, it will be done. Time is coming
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I need to talk to someone but dont know who... I feel so alone, lonely, cold, my heart is breaking. I want it all to be over, im tired of hoping, I always get disappointed. Living is only duties. Im sick and tired of this life. Nothing and no one will help me, im unhelpable.
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Have you tried calling a crises line? Sometimes they are helpful. HUGS Kit
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In my experience they are not. Best the Samaritans... but after a while they stop "working", like when you get used to meds and they dont help anymore... nothing can help me...
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i saw T today. i immediatly threw myself down on her floor (to her surprise) and admitted i am defeated by life. this battle at least.
i would have liked to cry and tell her how much is going on in my head but i think she got it anyway.
i got to talk to her about issues at work, with the new house and how i'll always be defeated and how everything ive ever hoped for will only be a huge disappointment. how nobody can help me and i begged her to kill me.
i told her i was going to drink (after months of being sober) and ive been cutting these last days and been taking pills.

i dont know how to say in words how much i feel defeated and destroyed by life.

i'll keep going, i'll keep faking it for as long as i can until i'll finally have everything settled down and then i'll finally be free to die.

cutting helps but drinkling a little more for now….
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