It's what I deserve

Só leigheas · 08-31-2018, 11:09 AM

It's been a long time since self injury has brought me any kind of relief. I haven't done it in a month, which is good, at least it's good to anyone but me.

I haven't been able to get it out of my head. It's not that it makes me feel better, it's that I deserve all of the pain I can get. I can't quit thinking about, dreaming about it... it's become an obsession.

That and I've been purposely making myself uncomfortable, get yelled at and placed myself in front of car the other day. It's not that I want to die. Yes, I think about committing suicide but I'm not going to do it. It's just that I want to get hurt, somehow.

I don't think I can keep fighting this off.

whispershadow · 08-31-2018, 11:11 AM

So leighas, I understand how hard it is, just wanted to let you know your not alone feeling this way

I do hope you can keep resisting it

Só leigheas · 09-01-2018, 05:01 AM

I couldn't do it anymore. I gave in. I still don't think it's enough, but I have to be discreet. Can't let people find out.

Bill3 · 09-09-2018, 12:37 PM

You don't deserve pain.

(((((Só leigheas)))))

SlumberKitty · 09-10-2018, 02:35 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Só leigheas

I couldn't do it anymore. I gave in. I still don't think it's enough, but I have to be discreet. Can't let people find out.

I hear you. Sometimes I feel that way where I don't think it's enough. ((hugs))

Fuzzybear · 09-13-2018, 05:20 PM

((((((( So leigheas )))))))

08-31-2018, 11:09 AM	#1
Só leigheas Grand Magnate Só leigheas is down in the forest. Member Since: Feb 2016 Location: Doing donuts in the parking lot Posts: 3,670 (SuperPoster!) 8,068 hugs given	It's what I deserve It's been a long time since self injury has brought me any kind of relief. I haven't done it in a month, which is good, at least it's good to anyone but me. I haven't been able to get it out of my head. It's not that it makes me feel better, it's that I deserve all of the pain I can get. I can't quit thinking about, dreaming about it... it's become an obsession. That and I've been purposely making myself uncomfortable, get yelled at and placed myself in front of car the other day. It's not that I want to die. Yes, I think about committing suicide but I'm not going to do it. It's just that I want to get hurt, somehow. I don't think I can keep fighting this off. __________________ "So I close my eyes and hope that tomorrow Brings brighter lights and respite from my sorrow" -Shinigami, 'Nobody'.

08-31-2018, 11:11 AM	#2
whispershadow Grand Poohbah whispershadow I love you and miss you, Ebony my sweetpea Member Since: Feb 2018 Location: The Milky Way Posts: 1,766 (SuperPoster!) My Mood: 1,715 hugs given	Re: It's what I deserve So leighas, I understand how hard it is, just wanted to let you know your not alone feeling this way I do hope you can keep resisting it __________________ "Please take it easy it can't all be my fault I haven't made half the mistakes that you've listed so far It seems I've stepped over lines you've drawn again and again" Snow Patrol "You've learned everything you need, Chance, now all you have to learn is how to say goodbye" Shadow - Homeward Bound

09-01-2018, 05:01 AM	#3
Só leigheas Grand Magnate Só leigheas is down in the forest. Member Since: Feb 2016 Location: Doing donuts in the parking lot Posts: 3,670 (SuperPoster!) 8,068 hugs given	Re: It's what I deserve I couldn't do it anymore. I gave in. I still don't think it's enough, but I have to be discreet. Can't let people find out. __________________ "So I close my eyes and hope that tomorrow Brings brighter lights and respite from my sorrow" -Shinigami, 'Nobody'.

09-09-2018, 12:37 PM	#4
Bill3 Wise Elder Bill3 has no updates. Member Since: Mar 2009 Location: USA Posts: 8,228 (SuperPoster!) 15.6k hugs given	Re: It's what I deserve You don't deserve pain. (((((Só leigheas)))))

09-13-2018, 05:20 PM	#6
Fuzzybear Wisest Elder Ever Fuzzybear has no updates. Member Since: Nov 2002 Location: Cave. Posts: 74,130 (SuperPoster!) 44.1k hugs given	Re: It's what I deserve ((((((( So leigheas ))))))) __________________

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