It's what I deserve

Só leigheas · 08-31-2018, 12:09 PM

It's been a long time since self injury has brought me any kind of relief. I haven't done it in a month, which is good, at least it's good to anyone but me.

I haven't been able to get it out of my head. It's not that it makes me feel better, it's that I deserve all of the pain I can get. I can't quit thinking about, dreaming about it... it's become an obsession.

That and I've been purposely making myself uncomfortable, get yelled at and placed myself in front of car the other day. It's not that I want to die. Yes, I think about committing suicide but I'm not going to do it. It's just that I want to get hurt, somehow.

I don't think I can keep fighting this off.

whispershadow · 08-31-2018, 12:11 PM

So leighas, I understand how hard it is, just wanted to let you know your not alone feeling this way

I do hope you can keep resisting it

Só leigheas · 09-01-2018, 06:01 AM

I couldn't do it anymore. I gave in. I still don't think it's enough, but I have to be discreet. Can't let people find out.

Bill3 · 09-09-2018, 01:37 PM

You don't deserve pain.

(((((Só leigheas)))))

SlumberKitty · 09-10-2018, 03:35 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Só leigheas

I couldn't do it anymore. I gave in. I still don't think it's enough, but I have to be discreet. Can't let people find out.

I hear you. Sometimes I feel that way where I don't think it's enough. ((hugs))

Fuzzybear · 09-13-2018, 06:20 PM

((((((( So leigheas )))))))

08-31-2018, 12:09 PM	#1
Só leigheas Grand Magnate Só leigheas is down in the forest. Member Since: Feb 2016 Location: Doing donuts in the parking lot Posts: 4,074 (SuperPoster!) Mentioned: 0 Post(s) Tagged: 0 Thread(s) 9,429 hugs given	It's what I deserve It's been a long time since self injury has brought me any kind of relief. I haven't done it in a month, which is good, at least it's good to anyone but me. I haven't been able to get it out of my head. It's not that it makes me feel better, it's that I deserve all of the pain I can get. I can't quit thinking about, dreaming about it... it's become an obsession. That and I've been purposely making myself uncomfortable, get yelled at and placed myself in front of car the other day. It's not that I want to die. Yes, I think about committing suicide but I'm not going to do it. It's just that I want to get hurt, somehow. I don't think I can keep fighting this off. __________________ "We had to steal him from his fate so he could see another day." -Twenty One Pilots, 'Taxi Cab'. "My hands did these things, but I was never easy in my mind." -Mudbound

08-31-2018, 12:11 PM	#2
whispershadow Grand Magnate whispershadow "there's only so much you can do to keep some things alive" Gnomeo and Juliet Member Since: Feb 2018 Location: The Milky Way Posts: 3,216 (SuperPoster!) My Mood: Mentioned: 0 Post(s) Tagged: 0 Thread(s) 2,884 hugs given	Re: It's what I deserve So leighas, I understand how hard it is, just wanted to let you know your not alone feeling this way I do hope you can keep resisting it __________________ "After all we'd been through, I needed to believe there was still hope" "All that was left was a memory and the pain of the poor creatures who had suffered. But there are always survivors" Jessie - Animal Farm 1999 "I didn't lose my mind it was Mine to give away Couldn't stay to watch me cry You didn't have the time So I softly slip away" No Regrets Robbie Williams For you, Ebony https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=q5gwNSq2OdU

09-01-2018, 06:01 AM	#3
Só leigheas Grand Magnate Só leigheas is down in the forest. Member Since: Feb 2016 Location: Doing donuts in the parking lot Posts: 4,074 (SuperPoster!) Mentioned: 0 Post(s) Tagged: 0 Thread(s) 9,429 hugs given	Re: It's what I deserve I couldn't do it anymore. I gave in. I still don't think it's enough, but I have to be discreet. Can't let people find out. __________________ "We had to steal him from his fate so he could see another day." -Twenty One Pilots, 'Taxi Cab'. "My hands did these things, but I was never easy in my mind." -Mudbound

09-09-2018, 01:37 PM	#4
Bill3 Wise Elder Bill3 has no updates. Member Since: Mar 2009 Location: USA Posts: 8,657 (SuperPoster!) Mentioned: 0 Post(s) Tagged: 1 Thread(s) 16.9k hugs given	Re: It's what I deserve You don't deserve pain. (((((Só leigheas)))))

09-13-2018, 06:20 PM	#6
Fuzzybear Wisest Elder Ever Fuzzybear has no updates. Member Since: Nov 2002 Location: Cave. Posts: 77,394 (SuperPoster!) Mentioned: 5 Post(s) Tagged: 0 Thread(s) 48.4k hugs given	Re: It's what I deserve ((((((( So leigheas ))))))) __________________

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