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Unread 03-20-2017, 10:09 AM   #1
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Well, it's Monday and the counselor from my health care provider will call me. She will ask me how my job search is going and if I got out of the house for a walk/run or to go for coffee. She won't mention the fact I am suffering from severe depression and suicidal ideation.

Yes, I got out. Barely. Not for coffee. I can't afford $4.00 fancy coffees out and don't much like sitting in a public place where everyone is glued to their phones or laptops. Is that supposed to make me feel less lonely? How is that supposed to help?

I can't mention the unmentionable. That my severe depression and suicidal ideation are as bad as ever. But now I have decided to stuff them both in boxes in back of the dark closet of my mind.

There is so much online about crisis prevention. But what about all the hours a person lives with and wrestles with severe depression?

There is so much written about how suicide hurts those around the depressed person and it is a selfish act. What about all the friends and relatives who ignore that someone near them is in such deep pain???

I will not self-disclose about the depression to the counselor who is calling. She is using CBT and it's good but how is a 20 minute call once a week supposed to change my life for the better? Does she really think she is helping me?

It's a sad joke...mental health care is a sad joke.
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I'm sorry you are suffering from severe depression and suicidal ideation. So am I. You are not alone.
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It's good that you at least got out. <3 The fact that you're reaching out shows some hope.

I've been there.

As far as the suicidal ideation, I've been there. It still pops in my head now and then. I've known quite a few people who have killed themselves and it still haunts me. I try to think of that when I think about killing myself.

I wish that I had a brilliant way with words the help you feel better.

You're not alone with this. Depression is a pain in the arse and it oozes into every crevice of life.
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"Mental health care is a sad joke"

I agree, public mental health is a sad joke.. we have no option but to ... realise the truth that it's a sad joke.
I too "deal" with severe depression and anxiety.. you're not alone
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I'm sorry you are suffering from severe depression and suicidal ideation. So am I. You are not alone.


I am very sorry you are also suffering. Unless one has been there they cannot imagine how bad it feels. I am really trying to "cure" myself because I want to go on with my life. It is boring and a strain to be in this place. Please post whatever works for you. CBT is working for me but it is very difficult and challenging to practice.
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It's good that you at least got out. <3 The fact that you're reaching out shows some hope.

I've been there.

As far as the suicidal ideation, I've been there. It still pops in my head now and then. I've known quite a few people who have killed themselves and it still haunts me. I try to think of that when I think about killing myself.

I wish that I had a brilliant way with words the help you feel better.

You're not alone with this. Depression is a pain in the arse and it oozes into every crevice of life.



Just you caring is enough. Brilliant words aren't needed. Thank you so much for reaching out. It helps so very much.
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"Mental health care is a sad joke"

I agree, public mental health is a sad joke.. we have no option but to ... realise the truth that it's a sad joke.
I too "deal" with severe depression and anxiety.. you're not alone



Dearest fuzzywuzzybear: Thank you so much. I really do not understand why there is not more work done in the area of public mental health when depression is a global epidemic.

But we have got to do it ourselves then. I am happy that you have papa bear. Everyone needs someone.

I am alone now but maybe in the future I will find some friends. But first I need to exit this dark place long enough to make friends! In the meantime I am grateful for friends like you, dear one, on Psych Central.
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I'm sorry you are suffering. Me too.
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When the counselor called I said I was great and she was all cheerful and talked to me for 20 minutes. Twenty minutes!

No mention of...where did the depression go? Where did the suicidal ideation go?

I mean I could be lying to her while standing on the roof of my apartment building! How clueless can these mental health people be?

It makes me laugh.

I have decided I need to do it on my own and that's that.
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I'm sorry you are suffering. Me too.


I am sorry you are in pain and I hope you can activate yourself to do something for yourself today. I have some energy today from "faking it" with the counselor on the phone and I think I am going to sweep up all the dust bunnies in my apt. and then go out. I have to push myself. I hope you do something for yourself today.
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