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Old 01-17-2019, 10:32 AM   #271
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Tank was a pratt for
Taking the photo
When I told him
To go away, get a beer,
Instead of taking mug shots.
I never put my
Hand infront of my face
As I thought he had
Maybe grown up a bit.
I would have had
A few bottles of lager,
But getting in a state
Was a thing of
The past for me then.
It's not like I was
Being snapped coming
Out of court.
I had no reason To
Cover my face.
And when they
Posted on fb.
He did look like
A stereotypical parlour in
That particular photo.
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Old 01-17-2019, 01:36 PM   #272
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Are you scared of me, pal?
You should be.
Pray to your faith.
I am fighting the
One with the no.2 haircut
Vis a vis, hoP to.
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Old 01-17-2019, 02:49 PM   #273
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Originally Posted by Balthascar810 View Post
I was afraid to talk
To the doctor.
What if the doctor
Thinks I am lying?
My family would
Not have found
Out what I said
To the doctor
Because If I admitted
That their behaviour
Was not only neglectful
And probably abusive
Then they would
Have got social services
To assist me.
And I had a
Bee in my bonnet
About social services.
I thought they were
For the poorest poor.
It's not like
I ever starved or
Went hungry. Never.
I got money for
Swimming and doing
Martial arts and I
Had my grandparents.
At least I used to
Be close to them.
And if social services
Stepped in then
My family would
Just say I was a liar
And that I had
Something wrong with me.
Neglectful. That is far
Too strong. I felt they
Were a bit selfish.
Some people would
Have described me
As being all for myself.
There are kids
With wealthy parents
Who are brought
Up by nannies.
And probably wish
Their parents were
Around more. I
Remember playing game boy
And watching t.v.
With my parents,
Some school nights
Rather than trekking
The streets in rain.
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Old 01-17-2019, 03:08 PM   #274
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I think that a lot of
People would have drawn
Similarities between us.
We both drunk too much.
We both had a temper.
But doing karate is
Not the same as
Fighting on a night out.
Fred thought he was a real fighter.
My suit looked a tutu
He would say.
I would rather have been a dancer
But dancers are
Happy and expressive and free.
And he thought that
Because I was trained
And fought competitively
That I liked his stories
Of drunken brawls.
When we were out
With some of my friends
A merry service man
Was speaking to one
And she had a boyfriend who
Was not with her that night.
So Fred set out
To start a fight. He
Kept looking at me
For approval, his eyes
Darting from the
Unwelcome man to me.
And the girl the merry
Man was talking to
Got pulled away by
One of my friends and
Another girl, and then
My friend and her boyfriend
Crept away and it
Was me and Fred, alone.
And I walked out the club.
I was in straits.
Anyone watching would
Be like: why does he
Keep looking at his bird
Does she "egg him on"
Is he waiting for
Her to cheer him on.
No, it drove me nuts.
Eissen and others said I had
Sorted out my problems.
I wanted a trouble
And drama free life
From then on.
And when my parents
Friend spoke to me
On a night out,
Fred hit him
So hard he was unconscious
For a brief spell.
I said you need
To go up and explain
To him you made
A mistake or he
Could get you
Charged and he is
My parents friend too.
I think Fred went
Up behind him
And hit him on
The back of the head.
I would have to
Ask Fred to change
The subject if we
Were out for a meal.
I would listen to him tell
The story first and
Say ok can we
Talk about something else
Or I would try
And joke: and that is
Why you were
Banned from karate classes.
I am an angry young man,
The boys at work say.
He did not care,
Why he was angry.
Boys will be boys.
You never strike someone
On the back of the head.
That was not only, dirty
It was dangerous.
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Old 01-17-2019, 03:27 PM   #275
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Freds boss was invited
To an opening of a restaurant
And the company and
All colleagues were invited.
It was supposed to
Be a meal to sample
The food. Alcohol was
Just an after thought.
And Fred followed
This man into the bathroom
And initiated a fight.
It was not a night out.
It was a restaurant opening.
It was on a weekday.
Fred should not
Have been drunk.
Not infront of his bosses.
And Freds excuse was
Dead on arrival.
The man apparently
Offended his work mate.
But when he told me
The story he puffed out
His chest and said
Nobody has ever
Won a fight with him before.
His boss advised Fred
That he must apologise,
He had to admit
That he used excessive force.
It was not just the fact
That they did
Business with this man.
But it was about time
Fred took responsibility
For his actions.
His boss must have
Thought if Fred saw
His injuries and bruises
That he would
Think twice next time.
Fred broke two of his ribs
And shattered his cheek bone.
Fred was not sorry.
He bragged about it
Too many times.
Fred used his co-worker
As an excuse but
He just wanted to prove
He was hard/tough.
Boys get into fights.
Men know when,
To walk away.
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Old 01-17-2019, 04:30 PM   #276
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I was too old for that course.
If I was not writing,
Doing my art,
I would have found
Something on my own.
I turned down jobs
I was offered and interviews
I knew I would get offered
Because my wounds
Were too fresh.
The advisor even asked
Me to pick somewhere
I always "wanted" to work.
And they could guarantee
Me work experience
There or somewhere similar.
It was guaranteed.
But I was not ready
To face the music.
I had fukkked up again.
And again it
Was me and time.
So on this course,
A young man no older than 18
Said: I do not need a job
In order to be happy.
I think he was missing
The point somewhere.
I have heard people
Saying you do not
Need a good job
To be happy but not
Having no job altogether.
In an ideal world
Young people should
Be required to do
Volunteer work if
They are claiming
At the job centre
From day one.
But that would be
Very difficult to implement
And maintain since
We are "the nanny state."
The organiser thought
He was thinking out
Of the box when we
Got an activity and
He said what If the
Child abuser is female
And not male like
Most people assume.
I knew the answer
The minute I read it.
I had come accross
These scenario exercises b4.
But I had nothing to prove
And no reason to be there.
Another young man
Who was there,
Was in a complete mess.
He had cat hair and scratches.
He smelled really bad.
And was on hard drugs.
The organiser picked
Him up every morning
To take him to this course.
So the jc were evidently
Trying to help him
And going out
Their jurisdiction to help him.
And I applaud that.
In hospital I never seen
Many as untidy as
This poor lad. He
Really needed some help.
It was not necessary
To do hygiene courses
In the hospital.
If people were dishevilled
It was because they
Were unwell or
Addicted to substances
Not because they
Were uneducated. What
A waste of money,
Time and resources.
The ward was a melting pot.
Barely two patients were alike.
To start by saying: I know
Solicitors and police officers
That have passed through here,
Why are you so arrogant?
It was all about you. That tirade.
I was at loggerheads with my family.
Visitors grew thin, granted.
This was not what I predicted
Would happen when
My engagement broke down.
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Old 01-17-2019, 04:37 PM   #277
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I was too old to "sofa surf."
Not everyone has a
Single friend with
A spare room.
My generation? Look
How difficult it is
To get on the property ladder.
Young adults stay
With their parents
For much longer
In many cases.
And it is not possible
To stay with a friend
Who has kids and
A partner, in a practical sense.
It would only be
A temporary solution.
All I had to do
Was swallow my pride.
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Old 01-17-2019, 04:52 PM   #278
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I tried to blame others.
Then with space to think,
I knew that I had a
Stupid a^s mood disorder
And I had done more
Than simply rebel.
I knew I was sick as a dog.
I don't come from
A big family as such.
I come from quite
A small, and close knit one.
So having a major fall out
With one person had
A knock on effect with everyone.
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Old 01-17-2019, 05:02 PM   #279
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When my mum went down
The road after my admittal,
She was not greeted with
Open arms by everyone.
I was a young woman.
And I had to look after myself.
No offer to give me
Time and space to recover.
I just felt like some
Cheap, dirty junkie.
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Old 01-17-2019, 05:11 PM   #280
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I would never have ended
Up on the streets.
My parents DID come around.
But I was not a drug addict.
That was why I
Was pushed to
Swallow my pride.
The only thing in
My way was my pride.
I was a victim
At the end of the day.
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