do u like or hate bulimia

[kazza34]

i have bulimia but i used to be anorexic,i hate being bulimic, i hate losing control and bingeing ,i hate the fact at one time i could go with out food or eat very little, i feel disgusted with myself for bingeing and full of shame and guilt, promising myself never again, but the cravings ,the urges,the emotions and the constant thoughts that i have to binge over take, i try ignoring them but they just get stronger, i have been to many eating disorder forums and some actually like being bulimic,they post pictures of their binge foods and congratulate each other, the more binge foods they have the more the picture is liked,so i am wondering who here actually likes being bulimic and who hates it

I think bulimia is an illness and I do not like any illness

[MsAmbrosia]

Those sound like they are Pro Mia forums and they can be extremely dangerous. I highly recommend steering clear of any Pro Mia and Pro Ana websites for your own health and safety.

I absolutely hate bulimia. I hate binging. I hate purging. I wouldn't wish it on the world even if I did bring it upon myself.

Be strong!

[DisordersRus]

I hate eating disorders. But like any addiction, it starts out feeling like a solution or a relief, or a way to escape, then it takes over and becomes a trap, a viscious cycle, and a way to feel like crap about myself for winding up in the same place yet again!

[kae31]

I totally agree with you. I don't like it at all but I get triggerd so easily into helping me cope with things I can handle I can't change I can't control. It makes me feel better to be able to control and handle something. Then I get the cravings and want to eat wether I binge eat or have "bad food" I feel so guilty and yes it starts all over agai. I've been dealing with this since I was in middle school I've had my ups and downs seemed over time it got worse worse I also had other health issues that kind covers up the damage I know I had done to myself . I had one mahout problem my junior year of highschool and ended up in the hospital for being Mel nutritious but I didn't get official diagnosed to 2 years ago.

[brodytrent008]

You feel a sense of calm and as if everything is in the clear and no more worries until the endorphins from the purge wears off and we are baxk to the beginning of regret, body shaming, and emotional pain.. I understand all comments I'm in the same boat 😢

[Chloe Dancer]

Originally Posted by kazza34

i have bulimia but i used to be anorexic,i hate being bulimic, i hate losing control and bingeing ,i hate the fact at one time i could go with out food or eat very little, i feel disgusted with myself for bingeing and full of shame and guilt, promising myself never again, but the cravings ,the urges,the emotions and the constant thoughts that i have to binge over take, i try ignoring them but they just get stronger, i have been to many eating disorder forums and some actually like being bulimic,they post pictures of their binge foods and congratulate each other, the more binge foods they have the more the picture is liked,so i am wondering who here actually likes being bulimic and who hates it

I HATE my illness... I hate it.. I don't want it... It has been my crutch since I was 12... It has been my so called friend.. But it isn't... It has taken my life away... These people may think they like it but as they get older they will see the destruction it has caused them.. I am still trying to control it... I have been in treatments and hospitals and lost a marriage, ( much much more... ).. Careers... I am sick all the time... I feel crazy.. My life revolves around the toilet ... I feel suicidal a lot because of it... I want it gone... I work with my therapist and DR weekly now... NO.. I don't want it

[Hinny]

Such a good question and mostly I hate it....I'm recovering, well, mainly. Brings me to second point, at times, its be my oldest, best friend and it's the only thing which makes me get through the day....it's wrong, I do know it's wrong, yet, whilst your in its grip, highly addictive.

[harmonyinheart]

MAY BE TRIGGERING

Bulimia is a horrid disease. I've had an eating disorder for over 17 years-first anorexia when I was 14 and after bulimia amd anorexia-bulimic type. It is not something I like; it abhors me and makes me feel filthy and gluttonous. I recently had a resurgence of the bulimia beginning in March and am starting to get a handle on it finally. It is hard as hell. As bulimia takes hold my anorexic thoughts begin to creeep back in, too and weight loss ensues and then I'm stuck battling both EDs.
Despite my hatred, though, there is that part of me that hasn't been able to let go. The binge/purge cycle, in the moment, provides a reprieve from the anxieties and mood issues (bipolar1) however fleeting,transient, and fugacious it may be. And that is what brings me back. That small frame of time where I feel free from all the terrible things going on.
But again, I hate it. I hate that it makes me feel worthless. I hate having my head in the toilet. I hate that I've spent thousands and thousands of dollars over the years on food that I just throw up. I hate the lying that underlies all eating disorders. I hate that I don't feel I can ever have a healthy relationship with food.
I could go on. But it is just more negativities.

I wish that we all could move to a healthier place with ourselves and our bodies and food. I truly wish that for all of us who battle against the self, the soul, our very beings, that we can get there.