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Old 01-03-2019, 07:27 AM   #1
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Is this stuff related to my bpd and depression or is it because I'm a bad lazy piece of **** ?


I have insomnia
I have no energy
I can barely function ie self care or doing anything productive
I am impulsive with spending
I have agoraphobia and social phobia
These random thoughts pop into my head telling me bad things . usually telling me bad things about myself and sometomes telling me to hurt people ( don't judge me , these are not thoughts i choose or listen to or want going round in my head )
I constantly worry and analyze everything to the point of paranoia
Sometimes i snap and the people i love the most which follows by immense guilt and self hatred and then i apologize
Does any of this sound familiar or make any sense to anyone ? Does it sound like bpd?
Im confused . i have no self asteem .
Nobody likes me and im alone and isolated .
This is not a life worth living . i often feel suicidal . i have self harmed but not recently
Im scared of confrontations
I think i know what people are tginking about me
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Old 01-04-2019, 12:16 AM   #2
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Sounds just like me. From what I've learnt about BPD and depression I would say yes they are probably responsible for all these symptoms you describe. I understand, it's a horrible way to feel. Wishing you better days ahead. (((Hugs)))
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Is this stuff related to my bpd and depression or is it because I'm a bad lazy piece of **** ?


I have insomnia
I have no energy
I can barely function ie self care or doing anything productive
I am impulsive with spending
I have agoraphobia and social phobia
These random thoughts pop into my head telling me bad things . usually telling me bad things about myself and sometomes telling me to hurt people ( don't judge me , these are not thoughts i choose or listen to or want going round in my head )
I constantly worry and analyze everything to the point of paranoia
Sometimes i snap and the people i love the most which follows by immense guilt and self hatred and then i apologize
Does any of this sound familiar or make any sense to anyone ? Does it sound like bpd?
Im confused . i have no self asteem .
Nobody likes me and im alone and isolated .
This is not a life worth living . i often feel suicidal . i have self harmed but not recently
Im scared of confrontations
I think i know what people are tginking about me
Sounds very much like bipolar to me. Have you been evaluated?
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Old 01-04-2019, 03:11 AM   #4
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Is this stuff related to my bpd and depression or is it because I'm a bad lazy piece of **** ?


I have insomnia
I have no energy
I can barely function ie self care or doing anything productive
I am impulsive with spending
I have agoraphobia and social phobia
These random thoughts pop into my head telling me bad things . usually telling me bad things about myself and sometomes telling me to hurt people ( don't judge me , these are not thoughts i choose or listen to or want going round in my head )
I constantly worry and analyze everything to the point of paranoia
Sometimes i snap and the people i love the most which follows by immense guilt and self hatred and then i apologize
Does any of this sound familiar or make any sense to anyone ? Does it sound like bpd?
Im confused . i have no self asteem .
Nobody likes me and im alone and isolated .
This is not a life worth living . i often feel suicidal . i have self harmed but not recently
Im scared of confrontations
I think i know what people are tginking about me
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That all sounds so familiar...I think that sounds very much like BPD.

I understand and feel these intrusive thoughts and feelings almost all the time.

Have you tried therapy before? DBT and Schema Therapy are effective therapies for the things that you've mentioned.

What are your thoughts about being diagnosed by a clinical psychologist or psychiatrist?

I haven't been officially diagnosed but I have traits of BPD and may possibly have BPD. I'm in Schema Therapy now for a little over two months but on a month and a half long break now due to my therapist needing a much needed break.

Check this out when you've got some time. Or just try looking up Schema Therapy if this website isn't conclusive enough.

anyway, here it is: Schema Theory
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Sounds very much like bipolar to me. Have you been evaluated?
I was told i had bpd but sometimes im not sure if its the right diagnosis or maybe it is but i might have additional mental health problems which haven't been diagnosed yet .
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That all sounds so familiar...I think that sounds very much like BPD.



I understand and feel these intrusive thoughts and feelings almost all the time.



Have you tried therapy before? DBT and Schema Therapy are effective therapies for the things that you've mentioned.



What are your thoughts about being diagnosed by a clinical psychologist or psychiatrist?



I haven't been officially diagnosed but I have traits of BPD and may possibly have BPD. I'm in Schema Therapy now for a little over two months but on a month and a half long break now due to my therapist needing a much needed break.



Check this out when you've got some time. Or just try looking up Schema Therapy if this website isn't conclusive enough.



anyway, here it is: Schema Theory
I was officially diagnosed with bpd . im waiting to get therapy but my agaraphobia is an issue
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I was officially diagnosed with bpd . im waiting to get therapy but my agaraphobia is an issue
I found a therapist online because mental health professionals are basically almost non existent to be entirely honest.

So maybe that's an option for you to consider in the future.

My therapist lives in the UK. and i've found several others that do online therapy who specialize in DBT and/or Schema Therapy. Some are quite expensive and some are average. Some therapists charge 180-200 pounds an hour its insane.. It makes one think about the poor and underprivileged in our society and their chances with improvement. F****** sad.

But yeah.. I hope you can get some relief and some progress. All the best to you. And let me know if you want some pointers or some contacts.

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You are not a bad lazy piece of ****.



Having no energy or motivation can be symptoms of depression.

I agree that agoraphobia is a separate diagnosis.

The other symptoms strike me as consistent with borderline pd.

Were you diagnosed bipolar or borderline?

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I found a therapist online because mental health professionals are basically almost non existent to be entirely honest.



So maybe that's an option for you to consider in the future.



My therapist lives in the UK. and i've found several others that do online therapy who specialize in DBT and/or Schema Therapy. Some are quite expensive and some are average. Some therapists charge 180-200 pounds an hour its insane.. It makes one think about the poor and underprivileged in our society and their chances with improvement. F****** sad.



But yeah.. I hope you can get some relief and some progress. All the best to you. And let me know if you want some pointers or some contacts.



What is schema ? Sounds good but i don't think i can afford it sadly .
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