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Old 02-15-2019, 09:17 PM   #1
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A lot of you know much of my story. Depressed at 14, psychotic and manic at 15, all over the place until around 18. Slowly getting better from about 18-20. Then only some mild postpartum depression with my 11 year old and small episodes in hindsight. Psychotic break at 28. Completely and utterly unstable until 32. Then (minus one hiccup that my pdoc fixed within 2 monthsóalthough it was bad enough to make me lose the job I had then), completely stable between 2-3 years.

And then there is now. Iím doing SO bad. And everyone is so optimistic, youíre going to be fine. Youíll get right back there. Well, history does not suggest this. History suggests that the times I have been very sick Iíve stayed that way for at least a few years. Iím getting fmla but honestly canít see myself going back to work. My IOP leader said to focus on today. She said Iím so far approved for 20 sessions and Iíve only used 2. My mom was saying she hopes I can go back to work after 2 weeks. I didnít have the guts to tell her I donít think thatís gonna be possible. Anyway, not sure what I wanted other than to rant. Iím feeling very low, despondent and defeated. 😢
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Old 02-15-2019, 09:38 PM   #2
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The not knowing is scary.
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Old 02-15-2019, 09:42 PM   #3
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Old 02-15-2019, 10:28 PM   #4
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I think you should focus short term , get into the groove of IOP...

I think maybe you will be surprised how fast things improve for you.

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Old 02-15-2019, 10:39 PM   #5
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History also shows that this pdoc is really good at helping you and you had the bad pdoc for at least some of those long episodes in the past and he just threw meds at you and hoped something would stick with no logic.

Have you done IOP before? I live too far away to be able to do it but everyone says it really helps a lot. 20 days is a long time so maybe don't think so far out.

You've done this before and you'll get through it again. I know you feel horrible right now but this will end and there is no reason to think that it will ruin everything for you. Your mom is probably being overly optimistic but that is what moms are for.

You are doing everything right. Just give it some time.
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Old 02-16-2019, 04:27 PM   #6
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iOP is a great place to focus on this fear. Take advantage of everything iOP has to offer!
I wonder if youíre going to the one I
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Not knowing is scary--and worrisome. I'm sorry you're struggling so.
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I really think I understand where you are coming from. It must be terrifying not knowing how long, and how bad, this episode will be. Simply, you cannot know. Past experience is a definite marker that can be used, but you have grown, as has your treatment. This leaves the future uncertain again. I would love to say Ďdonít worry. You got this. It will all be back to stable real sooní, but I will not lie. You are a strong woman and you will get through this, whatever form it takes. As others have suggested, take this day by day. Have hope. Keep fighting, and whatever happens you may be amazed where life takes you.
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I'm sorry you're going through this Cashart10. I wouldn't think too far into the future it will make you worry more. Focus on the short term and going to IOP. You may start to feel better sooner than you think.
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one day at a time ... every morning as you wake say today will be a good day ... do not give up but live everyday as a winner ... keep negative thoughts at a distance ... and always remember ... always ... we have your back ... you are loved here and we want you to suceed .... love and peace my friend ,, Tigger
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