[WishfulThinker66]

Well I managed to get through the shift of new duties and responsibilities. It was eventful however with a lot that was out of my control going wrong. I did it but it sure wasn't pleasant.

[Mountaindewed]

At work today we had to move 5 foot tall-10 foot long shelves of merchandise. We had to make sure the racks didn’t separate so the merchandise wouldn’t fall through and break. This was before the store opened. Everyone who was there just chose a side to get on, and pushed while someone yelled at directions on which way to move them. It was so, so anxiety provoking. I suck at following these sorts of directions. I get so confused. Luckily I was doing ok. Stuff was breaking, but it wasn’t my fault. No one got yelled at. The whole day was just stressful and anxiety provoking. But nothing bad actually happened. It was just how I was feeling.

[WishfulThinker66]

I quit the job on Wednesday. After having two public panic attacks during the previous week and a meltdown Wednesday night on the job, I found myself giving notice and signing all the paperwork. Maybe I was wrong. I could have asked to be switched to a department or some other accomodation of my anxiety. I doubt it would have helped however. It certainly wouldn't have solved the infuriating problem of lack of leadership.

I can tell you, I have lived stress free these last few days and it has been fabulous. I never realised just how sick work had made me.