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Unread 10-11-2017, 06:33 PM   #901
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JessLynn, if you're not will to seek help or change anything, nothing will change. You have a computer; Google meth to find out how what they use to manufacture that stuff...or see what the teeth of longtime meth users look like...research the impact regular use has on the human brain. I can't believe your family would disown you for seeking help. Unless you do seek help, your use will become readily apparent in time.
It's not that I think they would disown me for seeking help, but for admitting to using in the first place. It was my own stupidity that got me into this, filling emptiness with stupidity. I do know the effects it has but this voice in my head says "but you still have a little time left to play before that happens".
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I hope you got some helpful feedback at the group. Maybe opening up will help you be brave enough to go through the door to the next meeting.

Do you have old friends who don't care for drugs but still stand by you?
Thanks, I might go soon...

I have 3 friends in mind who might stand by me... I have two more childhood friends I could probably call and make plans to catch up with.
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Thanks, I might go soon...

I have 3 friends in mind who might stand by me... I have two more childhood friends I could probably call and make plans to catch up with.
Those friends are golden. I burned too many bridges before I got free of the grip of using various drugs almost daily. My teenage years were a blur. By the time I came up for air, I only had one real friend left. My circle of "friends" while I was using was pretty volatile; they came and went.

Eventually everyone using either breaks free or gets consumed by it. There are not a lot of long term happy users. I am speaking of drugs like meth or in my day MDA and "T" (PCP).

Reach out to your old friends. Remind yourself what's real and lasting.
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Another day sober (a good thing). I've not been to an AA meeting in weeks now becuase I've been fighting a bout of agoraphobia. I made an appointment to go out to lunch with a good friend from AA, but when I take these prolonged absences from meetings (they happen a few times a year), I always worry that people will think I went back out. The problem today is the agoraphobia...I'm pretty sure my friend won't think anything is wrong. I've been in contact with him by text (I don't answer the phone when I get like this), but haven't seen him in over a month. I'm afraid I'll have a panic attack or get paranoid.
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That's two & a quarter years, actually! Congratulations, greentires!
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I slept from 11:30pm-3:45am
then started calling around to all the different crisis lines for someone to talk to because I know staff downstairs couldn't or wouldn't talk to me! Most of them said "your in no immediate danger of hurting yourself so we have to end this call..." I was like "I understand...I am not important I get it just because I have a need to talk to someone you have to cut me off gee thanks!.." and they hung up on me...it's a couple mins to 8am I have an appointment at 11 hopefully it goes through it's to see my psych nurse hopefully it will go well!
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I'm sorry you had to go through that, but fortunately you have an appointment today. Also, you didn't have to drink over it, so you earned your milestone.
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Congrats on the sobriety milestone, greentires4me!

Sorry you couldn't find some one to talk to. We used to have a benefit where there was always someone to talk to. The idea is if you are anxious or depressed you could become suicidal even if you weren't yet, so mental distress doesn't have to be a crisis. Now they will "live chat" during business hours...
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I'm scared.

Meth helps me forget everything. Life.. Happiness blanket covers me. In the end, I have no experience to grow naturally.

Psychedelics like LSD and shrooms make me face my fear. Only to make me slip deeper into the unknown.

I feel... What do I feel? I don't know anymore. I never did.

Time pases by and I end up scarred by the lack of experience to deal with things.

The lure to go back to the drugs is high.. Because when I do the drug.. I never really feel high. I feel numb.

In the end, the anxiety is too much, making me numb anyways but with added anxiety.
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