Roll Call Five

[newtus]

is it bad that i creep myself out sometimes?

[FooZe]

Originally Posted by newtus

is it bad that i creep myself out sometimes?

Only if you don't like being creeped out.

[newtus]

Originally Posted by FooZe

Only if you don't like being creeped out.

lol i dont like it sometimes.

[Shayatanica]

I'm here.

Went to go get a new medicaid card & the numbers of the physicians in my group. I plan on going to see one this week. I've got a huge log of all my weird symptoms from the past month & I hope the guy doesn't think I'm a psycho for being so thorough! Hahahah.
Not really feeling all that well. For the last few nights at roughly the same time in the evening, I keep getting this sensation like someone is inflating a balloon on the inside of my skull & it's going to burst at any moment. It's the most infuriating sensation ever!!

Newtus, Cos, & Cyber.

[costello]

I don't know what I'm going to do. I feel like my son is regressing - just since this whole moving out thing started. Just a few days ago he was doing so well. Then last night he picked a fight with me over nothing. I know it's because he's so stressed.

And now his phone is turned off, so I can't reach him. He was saying last night that he feels like he shouldn't tell me things, that he shouldn't be close to his mother because some of his friends don't even talk to their mothers. I don't want him getting isolated. If he doesn't talk to me, he really has no one else to talk to.

Then last night he tells me that two and a half years ago, his teacher at the community college pointed a gun at him in class. I told him I didn't believe that had happened, and he said that he agreed - that as soon as the words were out of his mouth he realized how unlikely it was that it had happened. It disturbs me that this delusion is emerging right now. He claims he's believed this incident happened for a couple of years, but he's never mentioned it to me before last night.

[costello]

I just talked to his therapist, and I feel a bit better. She's going to talk to the pdoc. I think he can make this transition to living on his own if he keeps up his wellness practices. She also thinks it's important that he have a job.

I suggested last night that he might want to temporarily raise the dose of the Zyprexa. The therapist suggested that too. I don't think he'll react well to it. He just needs to know it's temporary to get him over the hump.

[Shayatanica]

I'm sorry that this is harder for you both than previously imagined. Getting into the gritty details & immediacy of a situation has a way with screwing up our perceptions of a good outcome!
Hopefully your son IS much wiser. He sure acts like it, at least a majority of the time. And if that truly is the case, the biggest obstacle is assuring him that increasing his Zyprexa doesn't mean he's failed... Stress & change tend to make anyone worse; regardless of how far they've come.

Today is "International Happiness Day" or some **** & I can't help but be continually reminded that my boyfriend is in a constant state of misery. He doesn't want a therapist, he doesn't want meds, he doesn't want to do any of the things I believe will help him... It's aggravating because there's nothing I dislike more than wasting my time! But hopefully he'll come around before everything collapses upon him. It'd really help me to break my bad habits if I had a good reason to...

[WeepingWillow23]

I'm sure your son will be ok Costello My parents were worried about me moving out and going to Uni, but it's worked out well. And he's not moving that far from you, is he? Plus he's still got his T and Pdoc nearby. I think it'll be good for him to stretch his wings and be more independent again

Shay: I'm sorry that you and your bf are struggling. It's hard when others can't admit they need help and get it. Hopefully he'll come around when he's ready

Newtus:

*Willow*

[costello]

Originally Posted by Shayatanica

Today is "International Happiness Day" or some **** & I can't help but be continually reminded that my boyfriend is in a constant state of misery. He doesn't want a therapist, he doesn't want meds, he doesn't want to do any of the things I believe will help him... It's aggravating because there's nothing I dislike more than wasting my time! But hopefully he'll come around before everything collapses upon him. It'd really help me to break my bad habits if I had a good reason to...

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Sorry your bf is miserable and refusing to take action. That's the worst thing about other people IMO. They just won't do what they should do.

[costello]

Originally Posted by WeepingWillow23

I'm sure your son will be ok Costello My parents were worried about me moving out and going to Uni, but it's worked out well. And he's not moving that far from you, is he? Plus he's still got his T and Pdoc nearby. I think it'll be good for him to stretch his wings and be more independent again

Thanks, Willow. I'm hoping it's going to be a positive thing too. He's just doing all the things I feared he'd do - isolating, stressing, getting paranoid (even a bit delusional). He does need independence, and he does need to learn to deal with stress. And this is a good way of doing it.