http://forums.psychcentral.com A safe and secure self-help support community run by Psych Central. en Sat, 25 May 2013 19:20:00 GMT vBulletin 60 http://forums.psychcentral.com/images/styles/pc/misc/rss.jpg http://forums.psychcentral.com http://forums.psychcentral.com/psychotherapy/281015-thoughts-therapy-week.html Sat, 25 May 2013 19:17:33 GMT My pbutton provided disclaimers:

Debate welcome
Tell me what the hell I'm doing wrong
I'd like to hear possible options/new ways of looking at this issue
Share your experiences
Open to all discussion - tangents welcome
Please give me cream pie (thanks to tr)




Last week, my T asked me what I thought it would it would be like to NOT feel defective. He suggested that feeling defective is comfortable for me and therefore I have trouble letting go of it. At first I was irate because feeling defective sucks and I definitely DO NOT think I think it is comfortable. Then I realized my level of irateness means that I need to think about it more, so I told him I needed to think about it.


So, I've been thinking about it, and thinking in a strange way maybe he's right. I know that when I was having suicidal thoughts, there was a certain comfort to those thoughts. Not comfort in the sense most people mean it. I am having trouble articulating what I mean and was hoping for additional insight and discussion that might help me clarify my thoughts. ]]> Psychotherapy My kids are cool http://forums.psychcentral.com/psychotherapy/281015-thoughts-therapy-week.html http://forums.psychcentral.com/depression/281014-thanks.html Sat, 25 May 2013 19:13:12 GMT Thanks to all of you in this forum for your love and support :heart: Sending you love, blessings and wishes and prayers for healing and better... Thanks to all of you in this forum for your love and support :heart:

Sending you love, blessings and wishes and prayers for healing and better days :love:

Love,
Fuzzy
:heart: ]]> Depression Fuzzybear http://forums.psychcentral.com/depression/281014-thanks.html http://forums.psychcentral.com/bipolar/281013-overeating-getting-fat.html Sat, 25 May 2013 19:03:22 GMT I can't believe I was so tiny in January and February. Since being on Geodon and Lamictal I have gained 30 ponds or more. My belly sticks out. It is awful. None of my clothes fit.

I wonder if I am over medicated. I take these meds:

Celexa 40mg.

Lamictal 200 mg.

Geodon 120 mg.

Ativan 6 mg

I am going to ask Pdoc about this in June but in the meantime I am starting to feel miserable and my hair is so thin I bought a wig. The wig looks super hot. It's the only fun thing in my life right now.

I walked for 45 mins today. I will try to lose weight. ]]> Bipolar bluewave7 http://forums.psychcentral.com/bipolar/281013-overeating-getting-fat.html http://forums.psychcentral.com/psychotherapy/281012-how-deal-transferance.html Sat, 25 May 2013 18:57:39 GMT Ok, so I had a realization earlier this morning. The reason I am fighting so hard to keep my therapist may have to do with extreme transferance.... Ok, so I had a realization earlier this morning. The reason I am fighting so hard to keep my therapist may have to do with extreme transferance. Because not only was she an amazing therapist in my eyes, she was also a really good friend and kind of like a mom to me. yes, I get that's not how a t relationship should be. Anyway, so now my question is, how does one deal with transferance. I assume with help from my t. But no one seems to want to help me with it. Everyone's answer is to just cut me off because its unhealthy. That does not seem professional to me. ]]> Psychotherapy Miswimmy1 http://forums.psychcentral.com/psychotherapy/281012-how-deal-transferance.html http://forums.psychcentral.com/borderline-personality-disorder/281010-umm.html Sat, 25 May 2013 18:55:20 GMT Maybe I'm not such a bad, horrible person after all
(I don't want to give details, it somehow doesn't seem that relevant... Or easy to explain
(not about anyone on pc, past or present)

So good at blaming self for freakin Everything. Perhaps it's time I quit?

:rain: :rain: :rain: ]]> Borderline Personality Disorder Fuzzybear http://forums.psychcentral.com/borderline-personality-disorder/281010-umm.html http://forums.psychcentral.com/other-mental-health-discussion/281009-surviving-all-thrown-me.html Sat, 25 May 2013 18:48:25 GMT I am having a clear day so far. No racing thoughts, no anger, no irritability. Actually having one of the bet days so far I have had in a long... I am having a clear day so far. No racing thoughts, no anger, no irritability.

Actually having one of the bet days so far I have had in a long time.

I realized this morning after I woke up still laying in bed that I am a survivor of this so called life. I have survived so many things to date, from the horrors of my so called childhood that was taken from me, to my mental states along the way, to physical illness, job loss, etc.

I have not totally given up. I continue to mush through the bad times, hopefully try to enjoy the good times and deal with everything in between.

Now of course this is how I see things today. I am also writing this down so I can go back here and read this when in the throws of the crap times that come upon me very quickly and maddening as they do every single flipping day.

Here's to the good times, may we forever enjoy them as much as we can.

To the bad, well I know you are out there lurking to take me down to my lowest and for that I say, okay I will deal with you then.

Thanks for listening/reading to anyone that comes here. ]]> Other Mental Health Discussion wadingthruemotions http://forums.psychcentral.com/other-mental-health-discussion/281009-surviving-all-thrown-me.html http://forums.psychcentral.com/bipolar/281008-miss-psyche-hospital.html Sat, 25 May 2013 18:43:57 GMT I know that sounds weird. And it's more a love-hate relationship I have with psyche wards.

Here's what I hate: no smoking. no coffee, no going outside when I want to.

But I miss the multiple daily counseling and group sessions. I miss the feeling of hope that things will get better when I leave. Everything is so easy. No groceries to buy, no meals to fix, no laundry to wash, someone gives me my meds, three hot meals a day, a regular bed time, and having conversations with other people that have mental illness. I miss the other patients, though some were annoying....I liked most of them and there was always someone to talk to.

I don't want to go back there any time soon, for sure. But they helped me alot and sometimes dealing with the complications and difficulties in my life makes me miss the psyche ward and the shear simplicity. ]]> Bipolar bluewave7 http://forums.psychcentral.com/bipolar/281008-miss-psyche-hospital.html http://forums.psychcentral.com/psychotherapy/281006-shame-vulnerability.html Sat, 25 May 2013 18:28:37 GMT Brené Brown: Listening to shame | Video on TED.com (http://www.ted.com/talks/brene_brown_listening_to_shame.html) I am sure most of you have seen... Brené Brown: Listening to shame | Video on TED.com

I am sure most of you have seen this. I had not. Good message. Thought I share. Understanding can be liberating. ]]> Psychotherapy Moodswing http://forums.psychcentral.com/psychotherapy/281006-shame-vulnerability.html http://forums.psychcentral.com/creative-corner/281004-story-dotty.html Sat, 25 May 2013 17:59:30 GMT I was asked the story of Dotty: the Suicidal Rag Doll, a character I created back in 2010. I don't really feel like re-typing and re-posting all the pics here, so I will just link to the blog I have her in.
Please be aware that the drawings and story may be triggering. Please take care of yourself.
The Story of Dotty: the Suicidal Rag Doll ]]> Creative Corner MdngtRain http://forums.psychcentral.com/creative-corner/281004-story-dotty.html http://forums.psychcentral.com/new-member-introductions/281001-hello-im-kathryn.html Sat, 25 May 2013 17:53:49 GMT I was searching for a senior group, when I happened on to " PsychCentral", and I thought......well, I do have a couple of issues, so maybe I'm in the right place.
I am living in Alaska, which is not a bad thing; it's beautiful.
I shouldn't be retired.I wasn't supposed to do that till at least 72.

Basically, I've been accelerated in time to being an elder and being pretty much a liability in the field I was in.....a caregiver.

I had an accident, about two years ago and have side effects from that.
Ya know.....to keep it short; I've changed a lot since that accident and I'm trying to adjust to the new me, AND, I'm having a tough time with the readjustment.
I was thinking that if I started communicating with people my age, I would get out of this " pity party of one", and get re-motivated. I'm almost 65, not 105, for crying out loud.

So, other then that......I'm happy to be here and hope I meet you all soon. I hope you all have a wonderful Memorial Day weekend :)

TTFN
Kath
]]> New Member Introductions newsenior http://forums.psychcentral.com/new-member-introductions/281001-hello-im-kathryn.html http://forums.psychcentral.com/schizoaffective-disorder/280999-having-breakdown.html Sat, 25 May 2013 17:48:05 GMT Been doing good for a while but as of last week started going into a nervous breakdown. New to this site and have no social friends (due to conflicts... Been doing good for a while but as of last week started going into a nervous breakdown. New to this site and have no social friends (due to conflicts of people being afraid of the disorder) so I thought I would try an online community.

Started with anxiety attacks as usual, then hallucinations, voices, and now commands of self harm and paranoid dellusions. Don't recognize my house as my own. Having nightmares, breaks in reality during the day, and starting to react to things and people who are not there. Today when crying was convinced the tears were burning scars into my face and even felt burning even though it was not real.

I am normally good at distinguishing real from unreal but right now that is really hard. Just have nobody to get through it with. Was hoping for some support from people with this condition who have breakdowns as well and some things they do to get through them. I always push for distraction but when the 'people' and 'voices' push through that is hard.

What do some of you guys do? ]]> Schizoaffective Disorder Ryan56 http://forums.psychcentral.com/schizoaffective-disorder/280999-having-breakdown.html http://forums.psychcentral.com/other-mental-health-discussion/280997-just-takes-me-little-longer-scotts-story.html Sat, 25 May 2013 16:56:28 GMT It just take me little longer - Scott's story - YouTube

Sometimes I hear people say they can't do something because they have a mental illness, and when challenged about the validity of that, they liken mental illness to a physical disability.

I'm not going to debate that point. All I can say is that the only limitations you have are the ones you place on yourself. Even if it takes you a little longer, a little bit more effort, you can still do it. ]]> Other Mental Health Discussion TheDragon http://forums.psychcentral.com/other-mental-health-discussion/280997-just-takes-me-little-longer-scotts-story.html http://forums.psychcentral.com/our-pets/280996-cat-humor.html Sat, 25 May 2013 16:32:12 GMT https://sphotos-b.xx.fbcdn.net/hphotos-prn1/156726_469077349805061_148064439_n.jpg

]]> Our Pets pachyderm http://forums.psychcentral.com/our-pets/280996-cat-humor.html http://forums.psychcentral.com/new-member-introductions/280994-i-wasnt-sure.html Sat, 25 May 2013 16:22:07 GMT I wasn't sure why I joined this site. Now i realise that i wanted know if i am alone or not. My partner doesnt understand what i am going through and therefore i feel alone and isolated.
She is wonderful and i love her, i just need to speak to others who share this affliction of depression/anxiety.
In a nutshell (or not) i have been diagnosed with depression and have spent the best part of 14 years fighting it. Medication has been sporadic mainly due to financial constraints and this has only worsened things.

All of it started due to physical, mental and sexual abuse from the age of 3. My father beat my mother, my sister and myself untill we finally left in 1988. From there i was shipped off to my grandparents where the aforementioned sexual abuse occured in conjunction with physical abuse. My sister suffered worse than i did, though witnessing this scarred me. From there i was sent to my mother in 1994 where i saw her waste away to drugs and booze before i was passed on to my aunt and uncle who perpetuated the cycle via mental abuse, turning (for the umpteenth time) a place of safety into hell. Eventually i fell into the world of drugs and booze, meaningles sex and general idiocy, as i was living alone from the age of 16. So thats part of the story, the rest can wait... ]]> New Member Introductions sushislinger http://forums.psychcentral.com/new-member-introductions/280994-i-wasnt-sure.html http://forums.psychcentral.com/psychotherapy/280993-does-my-t-really-know-me.html Sat, 25 May 2013 16:21:17 GMT "I wish I could talk to T more easily. I wish I could tell her more.
I wish she´d take initiative more.
I wish she´d be more interested in getting to know me, I think.
Then I´d tell her about what I´d really WANT and what´s really keeping me back. I´d tell her."

This is from my diary. Only when I read it back to me, I got a little concerned.

When I see therapy in movies, people just plop down on the coach and tell the therapist exactly what´s going on and just chat away.

I wish I could do that.
But I can never "just" say what´s on my mind.
Partly because I dont want to bore my therapist, partly I am too afraid to even put it into words and make it more "there", partly I am afraid that she could say something really harmfull, by mistake or push me to do something. And partly I just cannot put into words what´s in there.

I tried talking to her about it already, but I think she just couldn´t understand me, maybe because I don´t understand it myself.

I also don´t really feel like she "knows" me. I´ve been seeing her almost a year now.
She knows some things. But I feel like.... she knows me not really like a close friend...
Eg She doesn´t know how old I am, what my boyfriend´s name is,
when my father died and how old I was then (she always forgets this)
where I went to school... I don´t know if it´s important.
I just feel like someone who knew me well would know this.

sometimes i don´t know if she´s really interested in me. I wish she´d ask me more questions then I could be sure she´d really be interested in me and my life.

She can listen intently, but she doesn´t ask much and she keeps forgetting things I told her.


What do you think? ]]> Psychotherapy Alishia88 http://forums.psychcentral.com/psychotherapy/280993-does-my-t-really-know-me.html