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Unread 04-15-2013, 07:16 PM   #1
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I could really use some help, for the saddest tears are the ones sobbed into the bend of your own arm. I have grown far too talented at silent weeping. I am at a loss as to what I am supposed to do from here, and I can feel Death creeping behind my shoulder. His cold touch is so close to my flesh, and I am so close to inviting him to bring me to his own realm.

I'm not contemplating suicide. Please don't think that this is what this is. I am just out of ideas, and I am so tired of being so constantly sad.
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I could really use some help, for the saddest tears are the ones sobbed into the bend of your own arm. I have grown far too talented at silent weeping. I am at a loss as to what I am supposed to do from here, and I can feel Death creeping behind my shoulder. His cold touch is so close to my flesh, and I am so close to inviting him to bring me to his own realm.

I'm not contemplating suicide. Please don't think that this is what this is. I am just out of ideas, and I am so tired of being so constantly sad.
I know how you feel. I'm at a loss for what to do, too. Feel free to talk to me. I'm here for you.
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You're not alone. Did your doctor prescribe medications? Are you in therapy? A lot of people can relate to how you feel.

When you say you're out of ideas, what ideas are you talking about?
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hi. I know where you are coming from. I used to be there. but life has gotten better. much better. I once welcomed death with open arms and just recently found myself shocked to be celebrating life for the first time ever in
45 years. don't quit before the miracle happens. for me it was finally giving in to meds and therapy. tried everything else. nothing got me to here.

I like to look at life through the balance scales in my signature. I strive to keep them in balance. I have my risk factors on one side, the things that get me down, and my resources, supports, on the other side. when our risk factors become too many, the scales are out of balance, we start thinking about death as a way out. we don't have the resources or coping skills on the other side to balance us out. so that's when you start looking at what those risk factors are and figuring out what resources you can put in place to help balance you out again. a therapist can be of great assistance in doing this. theyre trained in coping skills, can help you identify your strengths. but just tackle those risk factors one by one and pretty soon you will find yourself in a happier place.
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You're not alone. Did your doctor prescribe medications? Are you in therapy? A lot of people can relate to how you feel.

When you say you're out of ideas, what ideas are you talking about?
Ideas about how to get better. I'm taking meds [I'm up to six of them now] and I'm in therapy, but I feel as if I'm making absolutely no progress.
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I could really use some help, for the saddest tears are the ones sobbed into the bend of your own arm. I have grown far too talented at silent weeping. I am at a loss as to what I am supposed to do from here, and I can feel Death creeping behind my shoulder. His cold touch is so close to my flesh, and I am so close to inviting him to bring me to his own realm.

I'm not contemplating suicide. Please don't think that this is what this is. I am just out of ideas, and I am so tired of being so constantly sad.
I understand. I am not far from where you are now. I can see it clear as day and can't seem to do anything but let it come and wash over me.

I wish I could help, say something to lift your spirits even just a little bit. I feel bad that I cannot. I am sorry.

It isn't so much sadness (it is that but) as it is this constant fight that I feel I can no longer put forth.

I cried once about a week or so ago for the first time in a very long time (like 2 years). I had hoped that once I found my tears again that I would feel a bit of a relief and that it would help wash my feelings out. It used to always help a little bit. but afterwards I felt nothing even close to that. I felt like I could cry a million tears and they wouldn't make a difference.

i will listen if you need it. I am good at that so I am told. Sometimes it does help to not think of your own troubles and just listen.
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You are not alone in feeling this way... Even though it may not be true...
You are beautiful at the written word, by the way.
Imho I don't think therapy and meds alone do the trick?
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You are not alone in feeling this way... Even though it may not be true...
You are beautiful at the written word, by the way.
Imho I don't think therapy and meds alone do the trick?
Thank you. My writing is the one thing I have that I feel good about. Everything else...I just feel as if my life is spiraling out of my control. Between my mood disorders and my ED I just really don't know what to do.
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Have you looked in the Eating Disorders forum much?

Eating Disorders - Forums at Psych Central

Or keep talking, something might come up?
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