|05-07-2009, 08:45 PM||#1|
JourneyUpward has no updates.
Member Since: May 2008
Under a microscope & in a zoo
I’ve been very agitated today. Hubby went golfing with friend today, which is a good thing. I had hoped to have the day to myself but friend's wife (my friend) came over with her grandson about 3:30. We left to go out to dinner with the guys about 5:00 pm. It was a nice time but I’m still feeling stirred up. I want to be alone; I want quiet, I want peace. Why is it that I rarely have time alone? I feel like I’m under a microscope as well as being babysat. Hubby doesn’t seem to like me driving by myself. He doesn’t like to leave me alone in the house and rarely does. He doesn’t trust me anymore. I wish none of this ever happened. I hate the way I have to live life now, constantly monitored & medicated and under watchful eyes. Now I know how animals feel in the zoo. I'm trying to think good thoughts but it increases my anxiety right now. Ugh!
|05-08-2009, 11:01 AM||#2|
Beautiful_Disaster has no updates.
Member Since: May 2009
Re: Under a microscope & in a zoo
Sorry you're having such a difficult time. I have days like this .... although not diagnosed bipolar "yet". Some days I just can't stand the presence of others. On edge and needing silence.
Hugs to you and I hope you feel better soon love