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Unread 02-04-2014, 01:23 PM   #51
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I am not ashamed of myself or my disorder. If people do not accept me it is their ignorance and their problem. That is why they reject you because they fear what they do not know. The essence of Prejudice. Give them some education sbout the disorder.


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I agree with you, beepee, except for the part about educating people. On a 1:1 basis I've found people to become even more prejudiced. I think the national groups are doing a great job and should support them more than I do. I don't share my diagnosis with anyone because it's none of their business. There is so much support out there from people who understand (because they,too, live with MI) that I blow off the ones who don't and let them label me as eccentric instead of mentally ill. Seems most people like to stick labels on each other. I isolate because of it...I know I'm a bit off-putting in my ups or downs.
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mental illness have such a stigma and people judge...only a few people know about my bi polar...
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Today reminded me, I'm not only ashamed of my disorder, I'm also frequently ashamed of myself and my actions. I went to the dr. today and I'm manic. I tried to talk very little but he knows me, got me to start talking and I couldn't stop and just rambled about so many things that I shouldn't have said. I noticed him and the nurse looking at eachother like, 'oh my, she is nuts'. Then it hit me how crazy I must seem to him and others. I think I'm in the same league, friends even, with people who must just think I'm delusional and must sigh with relief when I leave. I am so ashamed. How can I go back? I have a FU in 2 wks b/c my new med is giving me a rash. I'm such an idiot.
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Today reminded me, I'm not only ashamed of my disorder, I'm also frequently ashamed of myself and my actions. I went to the dr. today and I'm manic. I tried to talk very little but he knows me, got me to start talking and I couldn't stop and just rambled about so many things that I shouldn't have said. I noticed him and the nurse looking at eachother like, 'oh my, she is nuts'. Then it hit me how crazy I must seem to him and others. I think I'm in the same league, friends even, with people who must just think I'm delusional and must sigh with relief when I leave. I am so ashamed. How can I go back? I have a FU in 2 wks b/c my new med is giving me a rash. I'm such an idiot.
sorry you feel like this also, like you I am also ashamed of myself, I don't know how to go about changing my mindset, I hate feeling like this, I hope your appointment goes ok.
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I know this sounds bad, but have recently been diagnosed bipolar and borderline personality disorder, all I feel is totally ashamed of myself, I just can't seem to accept that its not my fault, what made it worse is I told a few friends, now they don't want to know me.
I just want to crawl into a corner and never come out.
I am newly diagnosed and working hard to accept my diagnosis and not be ashamed too. Just give yourself time and know that none of this is your fault Also, I'm sorry your so-called "friends" treated you that way. I am sure there are plenty of people out there that will be there for you and want to know the terrific person I'm sure you are. Hang in there
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mental illness have such a stigma and people judge...only a few people know about my bi polar...
It does doesn't it? We wouldn't be ashamed if we were physically ill would we?
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runfaraway, accepting your diagnosis takes time. losing friends happens to some of us, too. people fear what they don't understand.

therapy will help you deal with your new diagnosis. learning to call it a disease that you have instead of defining yourself by it comes in time.

my sympathies. It was 25 years ago that i was first diagnosed and i still remember what an upheaval it caused in my self image. you CAN live with BP and live your life just the way you planned.
ITA. I was diagnosed in 2012 and it turned my world upside down. I did not have bipolar all my life I was a late bloomer. It took me by storm too. I had to process it all and I did it with therapy. I was pissed at my family too b/c mental illness ran in our family and they kept it a secret. I had to work through that in therapy too. I'm in a better place now b/c of therapy. I did lose friends, close friends along the way. Well ppl I "thought" were close friends. I thoughts of them as family but they left me and it hurt. But it did not kill me it made me stronger. I'm very careful on how I tell b/c ppl judge "EVEN" family.
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I'm not ashamed of it, I just wish I could shut my mouth I am sure people would like and accept me more if when they ask how I am I didnt go off into full blown information about my Bipolar etc.

Every day I think ... right, I am just going to smile and answer politely, try to be calm and not over share .... every day its an epic fail and I end up regretting some conversation or other.
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Are you currently in a (hypo)manic episode FC?

I always overshare when I'm hypo. Without fail. Everyone will know alllll about how much sleep I'm not getting or if I keep forgetting to eat or what I was doing on the weekend or if I was feeling ill and allll sorts of stuff.

And I now have 7 coworkers who all know of my diagnosis. 7! And I almost blurted it out to a few others but fortunately my flag of "no, not trustworthy!" came to mind so I didn't.
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